I told myself I wouldn't cry today. At least not at the airport. But in the end I couldn't stop myself...
Sue-Ann left for Australia... Hai I know very well she'll be back pretty soon and i know i could still email, ICQ or even call her but i was still quite upset bout her departure today. =( I think all along her presence has always been very encouraging and she was there throughout my JC days - in class, during harmoc and all the other nonsense...
Thought it'll be better after she went in but then i didnt know letting go was so hard... Yeah after pris left at tanah merah eric asked me if i were ok then i started crying again... hai that guy... he went cannot cry otherwise the people on the train would think he did something to me... then i started laughing and was choking back on my tears so i told him to go away before he starts me on another round and he said cannot cannot otherwise people will really think he did something wrong... urgh... i din know whether to laugh, to cry or to scold him...
Think i must have looked like on idiot on the bus and train =) But yarh i think i'll take sometime to get over this... Sigh i wished we were back in sec sch or JC where we would at most go off to different schools and we'll just rise up the levels with our friends... Now, my friends are like scattered all over the world, luckily i'm still able to see most of them in my hols and i still have close friends in medicine... I think it's quite true that it gets harder and harder to make new and lasting friendships as one grows older... (But there's definitely exceptions =p) Guess we tend to stick to those in our circle and we dont spend as much time with the "new friends" as we did when we were younger, going for classes, recess, ECA, tutorials etc together... So treasure your friends!
Yup, think i'm better now... blogging is therapeutic! hah =) at least i'm not sobbing as badly as when i was walking home...
And to Sue-Ann, all the best! Miss ya!
? . 9:09 PM
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Haha sorry i havent been blogging for a long long while... & when i dont blog means my life has been boring. Boring equals mugging whole day long... Which is exactly what i'm supposed to be doing now... Aiyah dont care already i shall take a break for a little while...
Anyway XL congratulations!!!! (Sounds like you're married or something but i anyway it's gonna be soon too right? =p ) & to all the Feb babies yippee u’ve added one more year to your age... Haha was telling Pris just now i should stop making friends with people born in Feb... Haiyoh your mummies want company in the hospital harh??? So many of you lorh... My pocket got beeg beeg hole liao =) But anyway Happy Happy Birthday... And on a side note i just received my first bdae gift when my bdae is more than a month away. I shall be a nice girl and wait till my bdae to open it =) Poor me, no brithday celebrations for at least 5 years and by that time i'll be too old to celebrate liao =(
Yup actually i'm blogging cos i've been thinking about things on the train ride home.... Hmm went for MCF just now and felt quite encouraged about what Winston shared about. It was on the issue of "Who's fit to be a doctor?" Hah that ST's article which created quite a stir within the medicine faculty... I shall not say anything bout that lest they say i leak out info or something but yup the session made me think of why i'm in medicine.... Actually it's not just that but also why i'm taking on certain paths in life...
Guess there's really so much studying to be done so many things to do so many commitments i have that make me weary and disillusioned at times... And then i'll start questioning myself and why i got myself into all these in the first place.... Then it becomes even more draining and the whole effect snowballs... Hmm so i've been rather moody nowadays... Now I realise i've been out of focus all this while... The fact is life doesnt revolve around me... No amount of complaining would lessen the number of CAs i have. And rushing here and there to do the thousand and one things will make my days be filled but will not make my life fulfilled... Yarh at the end of the day it's the big things that matter. We are all doing what we are doing now for a bigger purpose.
Last wk for PDP we got to see the X-Ray of a patient who was warded for constipation... Then the MO at A&E sent him to the respiratory dept cos he noticed pleural effusion in one of the lungs... When the docs at the resp dept looked at the X-Ray they realised that he had at least 5 broken ribs from a fall and nobody noticed! I think no one in our grp noticed the 5 broken ribs on the X-ray until Dr Liam told us about the fall and asked us whether we could spot the problem... Wah seh, i think sometimes we're too caught up with details we dont notice the big thing...
So yarh if our aim is to be the best in the world we wont be happy even if we rise up the ranks… Hah it’s a blessing to serve others and the best happiness is that which is shared =) Yarh so people jia you =) Haha I’m sure if we help each other along the way the course would be an easier one for us =)
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>>WM: Wah u are scary man... i just uploaded this a while ago and u so fast comment liao...
>>Anonymous: Eh ManChi? i dunno whether i got that spelling right but she's my pri sch class mate... hah found out she's in harmoc through JH. Liased with Gillian b4 too...
>>FAV COUSIN!: Hey gimme ur blog add leh... and excuse me i'm not like you lorh.... there is no U NOE WHO... humpf...
? . 7:41 PM
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Boo hoo hoo... I just got my phone back and i realised horrors of horrors everything inside is gone!!! My msgs, my ringtones, my wallpapers, my games and all the numbers in my address book!!!! Ok i dun care about my msgs right now, ringtones i hafta download again but then again it's about time i changed them so it aint that bad... Wallpapers err i miss my piglet and i dunno where i got it from so i cant get it back, sob sob =( Then no games equals no bubbles to pop when i'm bored... hai hai hai... and
all my numbers are gone!!! i cant believe it... errr i saved all my numbers in the phone, not in the SIM card lorh... Hai... now i wont know who's who and there's quite a lot of numbers for me to start collecting all over again... My papa said they had to reprogram my entire phone cos it cant even be switched on so there was no choice but to do away with all those things =( Anyway i think my papa mama very nice to me. My brother drove the car to sch today so we din have a car at home and my papa walked all the way to parkway to get it repaired for me while i went to sch... He asked me to collect it myself in the evening cos he has a meeting but i was tired from the com service so i told him i'll do it tmr... Then this time my mama went all the way there to collect it for me while she shopped for groceries... Ooops i feel quite mean to them but thanks man i luv u all =)
Anyway i had quite a great time at the Science Centre today =) Heh I must say all the volunteers did an excellent job & it's really you guys who made the event successful =) Yah diana it's over so you can heave a sigh of relief, see nothing will go wrong one =) I'm supposed to be one of the organisers for this event, together with Diana, Pris, XL and Sijin, but i must admit i din do much so quite chan kui... Heh heh but i'm quite encouraged by the fact that the volunteers enjoyed themselves. Could really feel the sense of altruism in them and the smiles on the charges faces really brightened up my day =) Though it was quite tiring to run around the science centre like some shepherd, i had quite a fun time there. A bit sad that we didnt spend much time there though...
Yup, i think next time when we all become professionals we should always be there to give the gift of love. Really, giving warms your heart... Hmm before the CA, i was watching di4 qiu2 wu2 jie4 xian4... eh some U channel show with chen hui hui going to china with a doc... Hmm i liked something she said at the end quite a lot... Err i'm going to type it in han yu ping ying so i dunno if it makes sense... but anyway it's something like zhen3 me4 rang4 yi4 di1 shui3 bu4 gan1 ku1 ne1? jiu4 shi4 ba3 ta1 gui1 xiang4 da4 hai3 rang4 ta1 yong2 yuan3 sheng1 sheng1 bu4 xi1. Yarh a direct translation is that the only way to ensure that a drop of water doesnt dry up is to put it back into the ocean so that it would become a wellspring of life... Thought it made quite a lot of sense... Guess we all belong to a bigger entity and we dont live in a world of our own so we should always be there for others and others will always be there for us =)
Tired... shall sleep early today... =p
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>>cute girl: If anonymous wants to remain anonymous i wouldnt bribe you for it =p Hee my tester's Poh something something... same?? haha... so qiao.... or maybe they were all trained to say the same things =)
>>Anonymous: HC harmoc... hmm i know a few pple there... blustarr is one... heh u can go guess who she is though i dont think it's very hard =)
>>Mei: Yarh hope you dont get my tester... haha... heh =)
>>Phantom: Of those quite a lot were from you lorh... bet u tot i was going to tiao lou....
>>blustarr : harlo... heh u v busy arh? so long nv see you on the comp liao...
? . 9:15 PM
Sorry arh this is going to be a lamenting entry so if you arent in the mood for such things dont read it =)
Hai I failed my driving test. Again. And unlike the previous one i dont even know how i failed this time so i'm quite irritated... I came back from the test thinking i would pass but then he sat down and started ticking and ticking and ticking... urgh... Hmm lets see he gave me at least 12 points for driving too slowly...(speed too slow for the road - 2; speed too slow for traffic conditions - 4; delay in moving off - 2; insufficient acceleration - 4) Driving too slowly???? I cant believe it leh... Nobody in my whole life has told me i drove too slowly before... My instructor forever tells me to lift my foot off the accelerator cos i never slow down and i drive at like 80 km/h on the highway... Hurr now he comes and deducts 12 points from me for driving too slowly?! Yarh larh i think i made an effort to drive slower but i didnt even think it was that slow... He said the cars were way in front of me so it just goes to show how slow i am... Err question mark question mark... But whatever larh... I never knew i had to keep pace with them and excuse me they can speed i cant lorh. And then he penalized me for my gear stuff... He said i must change down to gear 2 before i stop so that i can be better prepared for the hazards and be prepared to move off... But it's red light lorh! I know the school pple are taught this but i'm not! I always stop with gear 4, sometimes gear 3 so i thought it'll be good enough to show him i know how to use an engine brake by changing down to gear 3 at all the traffic lights... urgh... oh well... And for more than 2 times during the evalution session he said, "You can drive, but...." Then he goes on his long story drawing on my score sheet and starts ticking and ticking... Alamak... If you think i can drive then you complain so much for what?? Hai sorry for complaining so much arh, i'm quite depressed cos i wanted to pass this time... It's like throwing money down the drains so i cant help being irritated... But it was a good learning experience and at least he was better than my first tester who didnt even tell me what's wrong with my driving... Hmm hope i can do better for my next test... =)
And that's not the only bad thing that happened to me that day. After the test my phone conked out... Hmm it was exactly at the point when i started to msg a few pple to tell them about my result and was just about to reply to some of them... Then my phone went blank... Hmm I thought my battery went flat but when i went home and i couldnt even charge my phone i realised my phone seriously died on me... Haha i think i freaked a lot of pple out... Heh heh did you all think i was going to commit suicide or something??? I'm not that mad larh =) Ok about it after a while... Haha luckily i called my father before my phone gave up on me, otherwise he'll be frantically searching for me too =) When i finally reached home at 10 plus and used my mom's phone to check my msgs, there were like 20 something 30 msgs and a couple of voice msgs in my phone... Ooooopps... eh paiseh paiseh... i didnt mean to avoid you all...=p Errr and my numbers are all stored in my phone so i dont even know who some of you are... =) So sorry... And anyway thanks for the concern =)
Give them all to Jesus
Are you tired of chasing pretty rainbows?
Are you tired of spinning round and round?
Wrap up all the shattered dreams of your life,
and at the feet of Jesus lay them down.
He never said you'd only see sunshine.
He never said there'd be no rain.
He only promise us a heart full of singing,
at the very thing that once brought pain.
Chorus:
Give them all, give them all,
Give them all to Jesus,
shattered dreams, wounded hearts, broken toys,
Give them all, give them all,
Give them all to Jesus,
and He will turn your sorrow into joy.
? . 7:46 AM
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I changed the font of my blog... haha Priscilla Phoon says the previous one is ugly. I think so too =) but i was too lazy to change it... ok now this one looks a little better =)
Anyway, phew CA8's over =) Wah i didnt even realise we took 8 CAs already... hmmm M1's coming to an end (eh that's provided i dont get retained) and somehow i feel as if i've just started settling down... Anyway CA8 was terribly horribly atrocious... hmm i think i haven done more guessing in my entire life....It was a case of Q1 uh oh eh i'm not sure... nv mind this choice seems more correct... Q2 hmm how come all these seem so foreign? Q3 dunno, skip... Q4 errr prob the first page is exceptionally hard... Q5 urm this isnt getting any simpler... urgh i dunno! Q6,7,8... eh how come there isn't a single question i'm sure of getting correct???!! and it goes on and on... 10 questions down: how come it never seems to end???!! horrendous... And i guessed it didnt helped that they went through the answers right after the test. Basically they threw the fact that i got 10 or more qn wrong for the GIT part right smack in my face.... Prob next time i dont need to read guyton already, i'll just bring an eraser and start throwing during the CA... =( urgh i hope i can get through M1... i dun want to be in the same class as a batch of juniors i dunno and then cannot crap with all my crazzie crazzie med frens anymore =( haiyahyah...
Anyway it's over so i shall not brood over it :) After that i went shopping for bdae presents and farewell gifts with Pris =) Heh i think we're quite efficient. We went to a few shops and chop chop settled everything... I liked one of the gifts quite a lot.... It's cute & huggable and we're sure the person we bought it for would love it =) Then we went to Yun Nan to shop for M2 books so we can start preparing for pathology pharmaco etc etc... heh... haha obviously we arent that mad... went there to get Moore and Guyton for our friends who will be leaving for Australia and we tot that wudnt take very long... But in the end we left the shop 1+ hr later cos the shop din have stock and we din know what to do... Hah the shop is like how big lorh and we managed to stay in there for more than an hr talking to our frens on the phone... I think we're quite zai... =) And i'm sure the auntie thinks we're both a bit mad by now... =)
I'm moody over something now... I know i should let go and trust God with everything but sometimes some things just hold me back... =( Anyway, shall tell u guys how it goes tmr but dun ask me anything about it in the meantime cos i'll get stressed =) Hai..... Hai hai hai...
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>>Mingyan: HUANG MINGYAN!!!!! U beeeg bum bum... Where have u disappeared to??? Haiyoh, come back s'pore also nv tell us, sms u u nv reply... Then once in a while pop out and say hello and then peew vanish again... Hai hai... Haha how are you??? Must eat more leh, be fat fat so i wont be the only one =) Eh if u ever read this let me know... haha... =)
>>Anonymous: Harlo... Eh u're in med and harmoc? Erh who are you? =)
? . 9:07 PM
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