95 years. That's a pretty long time. In fact i cant imagine living for 95 years and there's nothing more we can ask for. And i guess even though it came rather suddenly, it wasnt a sad affair cos we knew she has gone to a better place and she has led a blessed life with the 11 children she led up herself happily married and has 10 great grandchildren who affectionally call her lao ma.

Was there with her for the past 4 days. But I still feel this tinge of regret that I haven been with her in her last days here. Din get to hold her hand one last time cos when my bro and I rushed down that day the undertaker had took her away already. Didnt even visit her cos i kept thinking that new year was coming and i'll see her anyway. Sigh. I always think that there's more time but nothing's definite. Cant take things for granted and i shall treasure the only Granpa i have left more.

She shaped out our family and our faith. Even at the age of 75, she took on a position as a volunteer with a Christian organisation and worked for over 10 years there. Now as i look back i think i din realise how old she was when i was back in primary sch and that was quite a feat. But that how she was. She always had this exuberant energy in her and it stemmed from the close relationship she had with God. Really, I have a lot to learn from her...

I still remember how we used to take her out to lunches after church on Sundays and how she'll always ask for pig trotters and coke but my dad will always stop her. Then she'll be quite unhappy and in the end we'll still let her have her way. But despite all these she's still as healthy as ever and lived to a ripe old age. Yeah i think tt's why till now i think that all the risk factors for diseases are crap. Whatever will be will be. Miss her. Miss the times we shared together. Miss how she'll always ask whether i got kao di yi ming. Haha. and even if i told her no she'll still go around telling everyone i did =)

New Year this yr wont be what it is without her around. But I know she lives on with us forever.

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